ミランダ (大丈夫) (faded_lace) wrote,
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Meme taken from ssempai

This meme is strangely deep for a meme as ssempai said... o___o;; I really hope anyone doesn't read too far into it, but I also hope that people do read it in general. I don't want people to assume any comments are made directly at them, but at the same time, I want people to understand my feelings. Please note that none of these are in any order... I wrote them as they hit me.

Ten things I wish I could say to 10 different people right now:
⓵ I love you so much. Sometimes I feel like you don't want to be around me, and that we grew apart... when I think about it, I cry, and so I really hope it isn't true. I've loved you for so much of my life and I still love you, no matter what. I miss you and I want to be together again...
⓶ I worry for you. I hope you can take care of yourself, and a lot of times, I question your ability to do so... but I love you, and I have confidence that, even if it takes time, you'll be able to succeed.
⓷ I'm glad we were able to get close this past spring, and I really hope you don't judge me for being who I am. I also hope you know that I love you and definitely want to hang out more in the future!
⓸ I really like you. I love spending time with you. I have so much fun with you. Sometimes I wonder if you like to be around me, though.
⓹ I'm still terrified you hate me. I really feel like you don't like being around me. I want to spend time with you. I want to get closer to you. But I'm afraid that you would hate that.
⓺ I really worry about you. I've been really fond of you since I met you back in the summer of 2005. You're so much fun and it's great to talk to you. But I want you to be happy and to be able to succeed, and I want you to find love. I'm always rooting for you!
⓻ Sometimes I don't understand you. I hate it when you say you're okay and you're really not. I love you to bits and I want you to be happy. I miss you, and I want to be able to be there for you. I hope we can be together again sometime soon.
⓼ I can't help but feel that you're judging me sometimes. I don't agree with some of the things you argue. I love spending time with you, but I always feel like maybe you look at me differently for being who I am.
⓽ I wish you would accept me for who I am. I wish you would understand how I feel. I wish you wouldn't see me as a constant disappointment, a failure that you somehow messed up.
⓾ I love you more than words can express. Though sometimes I know I'm selfish and sometimes I really do feel like you do really obnoxious things that I have a right to be angry at you about, in the end, I love you with all of my heart, and I want you to be happy. I want to be with you forever.

Nine Things about Myself:
⓵ I am selfish.
⓶ I am self-conscious.
⓷ I need attention and constant reassurance
⓸ I am assertive
⓹ I am confrontational
⓺ I am a steadfast feminist
⓻ I am a lesbian
⓼ I have a girlfriend who I love very much
⓽ I am a a half-breed child and because of this, I am always conscious of people outside of the majority.

Eight Ways to Win My Heart:
⓵ Spend time with me
⓶ Love me
⓷ Tell me I'm beautiful, intelligent, kind--something. Tell me I'm not worthless.
⓸ Don't try to rape me kthanx.
⓹ Talk to me
⓺ Catch me when I fall, care for me when I'm hurt. Be there when I cry
⓻ Be my friend
⓼ Take care of me when I need to be taken care of

Seven Things that Cross My Mind a Lot:
⓵ "Buttsex"
⓶ "Women are better than men"
⓷ "Wow that girl is hot/pretty"
⓸ "Did V write on the RP yet...?"
⓹ "[insert Saiyuki pairing number here]!!!!!"
⓺ "Why do I suck so much?"
⓻ "When do I have rehearsal/dance today...?"

Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:
⓵ Put on pajamas
⓶ Brush my teeth
⓷ brush my hair and put it in a ponytail
⓸ Take out my contacts
⓹ Take off my makeup
⓺ Turn on my alarm

Five People Who Mean a Lot:
I'm going to do groups of people. Because I definitely can't say just 5.
⓵ My family, because they accept who I am and take care of me
⓶ V, because she loves me no matter what I do, and because I love her more than I can possibly say
⓷ Ami, because I've loved you for 14 years now, and Sarah, because you're a dork and I love you for it
⓸ Arielle and Cara, because you're my family at Bryn Mawr and I love you both
⓹ All my friends who are away at college right now, because I miss you so much and distance makes the heart grow fonder!

Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now:
⓵ Purple American Eagle top
⓶ Matching purple eyeliner and earrings
⓷ Pink American Eagle scarf
⓸ Matching pink headband and eyeshadow

Three Songs/Bands/Artists I listen to Often:
⓵ WAG//Fukisusabu Kaze no Naka de
⓶ Shimokawa Mikuni//Alone
⓷ Snow Patrol//Chasing Cars

Two Things I Want to Do Before I die:
⓵ Publish a book or short story
⓶ Dance in The Nutcracker again

One Confession:
⓵ More than anything, I want people to love me and to want to be around me. I'm needy. This is probably why everything I do is so bitchy.

Thanks for your time.
Tags: i think we are friends, meme, yesterday all my troubles seemed so far
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