October 11th, 2006


I think I'll be like Kai-kun, just for once.

I wish I could just go hide away from everyone, so that I can't hurt them, and they can't accidentally, by no fault of their own, hurt me.

I wish I could erase and change one thing about myself, or someone else (no matter how horribly selfish that is).

I'm selfish, and stupid, and I make matters worse when they're already bad.

Why does every aspect of my life feel as if it's been drenched in liquid nitrogen and then thrown against a brick wall?

I want to let go.

I want to let go.

Why can't I ever let go?

I'll say goodbye, Lost Heaven
How I longed for Heaven
I'm letting go of something I never had
Time goes so fast
Heaven is Lost...