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09 January 2011 @ 08:57 pm
Magnum Opus Epilogue  
Spent my weekend at a dance convention as an observer, but... I can only watch people learn choreography for so long XD;;; So, I managed to write a little fic~ It's the last little piece of my Magnum Opus,

Title: Ever After

Disclaimer: Panic Age is not mine~

Rating: G

Pairing: Eiji/Jay

Warnings: BL and things? This is way milder than the other stories in the series, so if you weren't offended by those, you're safe. XD;

Author's Note: The series really was complete before, but I wanted to wrap things up with a little epilogue. This isn't necessary, and I honestly don't know if it's artistically sound, but in the end, I wanted everyone to be happy for sure. But this is definitely an epilogue so... I guess, don't give it as much weight as the other segments? ^^; Oh, and of course, it's a companion to Hate, Between the Cracks, All or Nothing, Growth, and Everything's Okay.

Living, really living again is strange for Daiki after so many years of faking it. Getting back on his feet after his release from the hospital was a challenge, as has been slowly giving up all his vices one at a time, but he had Jay there the whole time, Jay holding his hand and taking the baby steps with him, and somehow, he's made it, somehow, he's back at work, back meeting with friends and attending parties without touching alcohol or cigarettes or anything in-between. While Jay was staying with him, while Jay had taken a week off of work to be with him, Jay had sat with him and patiently watched every one of his old *pnish* VHS tapes and DVDs, all the old plays and skits and videos. It had taken hours, but Jay had never voiced a word of complaint, and then afterwards, Jay had packaged them all up and taken them away, and Daiki hasn't seen them since.  And so here he is, sober and clean and really participating in society, really living beyond taking up space in a way he hasn't done since Eiji left over twenty years ago now. 

The only thing he misses is Jay. Throughout the duration of Daiki's recovery, Jay stayed in Tokyo, took time off work and held Daiki's trembling hands as he worked his way through withdrawal symptoms and past personal demons, and for those few weeks, Daiki could pretend that everything was the way it was supposed to be, that Jay was home with him and would always be. But, of course, that wasn't actually the case, and Jay had a job and a life to get back to in Osaka, and really, in the end, Daiki couldn't begrudge him for it. No matter whose crabby hands had grasped a little too tightly (and Daiki isn't sure who he blamed more, himself or Eiji, but worrying about fault isn't helping him now), but that was simply how the cookie has crumbled, and really, in the end, Jay is and adult now, and though Daiki wishes he were closer, he was bound to leave the nest at some point. Daiki is simply glad to be back on speaking terms with him, glad to have his son back.

And Jay has been too good to him recently, anyway. He comes up to Tokyo once a month to visit, and helps Daiki with housework or cooks him dinner or simply talks and listens, which is more than Daiki could even ask for. Sometimes it still turns awkward; Jay clearly walks as if on eggshells around him, but Daiki can't bring himself to mention it when it really probably is for the best that his son doesn't bring up their one-time mutual lover, doesn't rip open the old wounds that he's worked so hard to bandage in his father. But still, it's better than they've been in a very long time, even before Eiji, even before things really fell apart, and Daiki really does love Jay more than anyone else on the planet, hands down. Just having him around is far, far more than enough. 

And the more time wears on, really, the less Daiki can begrudge Eiji for taking Jay away at all. It still hurts, yes, to remember the way that Eiji used to love him, but that was a long time ago, and Jay is happy and healthy and, as far as Daiki can tell, taken care of. No, it isn't perfect, but a parent could certainly have less in a partner for his child, and Daiki really, truly is glad that Jay has what he wants.

And so a year goes by this way, faster than years previous, and less painfully, too. Daiki spends his time having coffee with Besshi and accepting kankeisha tickets to Wasshi's occasional concert and going to Tsuchiya's uchiages when he isn't walking the dog or talking to Mizuki on the phone. He cooks himself dinner almost every day and does the dishes afterwards, and he cleans the apartment at least once a month. All in all, somehow, with Jay's help, Daiki has pulled his life around, and it's easier than he ever thought it could be. 

And then one day, in one of his cleaning ventures, he stumbles upon an old ring that Jay must have had ferreted away in his bedroom years ago and forgotten about. Daiki himself had forgotten about it, but there was no mistaking it--it was a ring he'd snitched from Eiji in rehearsals sometime in 2003 or 2004, long before Jay was even born. He'd clearly never given it back (never had the chance to give it back) and forgotten about it (probably in congruence with his attempts to forget Eiji), and, at some point along the line, Jay had found it and taken it just as Daiki had taken it from Eiji years prior and then also promptly forgotten about it. Honestly, now, it was Daiki's first impulse to throw it away, but something staid his hand.

A week later, Jay received a small parcel in the mail from his father. The attached note simply read "This was Eiji's; thought you'd want it." When Jay made it back to Tokyo the next week, however, his father didn't mention a thing, only smiled knowingly and asked him, nonchalantly and pleasantly, how things were going with Eiji.
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Tiny Tiny Court: Oi Veyfencer_x on January 9th, 2011 11:20 pm (UTC)
I spent the whole series not sure if I wanted Jay to get with Eiji or Daiki to reunite, and I STILL don't know if I'm happy it ended this way, but I guess that's how it is ;~; can't have your cake and eat it too! I really liked how you brought in the ring too, and having Jay steal it for no particular reason initially--a really childish thing to do I thought :3

I'm glad they're all more or less settled down again though ^^ PANIC AGE WHY U SO SAD?? I wonder if this'll be the next Produce show :P
ミランダ (大丈夫): EijiDaiki: Captivatedfaded_lace on January 9th, 2011 11:33 pm (UTC)
Yeah, you know... I wanted it both ways, too, since they were both victims, in the end, but once things happened the way they happened... there was really no realistic way for it to come out even vaguely happy besides this. And yeah, it seemed like something he would do, especially since Daiki did it to Eiji in real life XD; And Jay was a rebellious teenager, of course. XD;

But yeah, I wanted to make it as normal and happy as it could be... AND I WANT IT TO BE THE NEXT PRODUCE SHOW.
Jesse 〔マイト・ガイ〕: moridaiki hugjesu_chan on January 10th, 2011 12:11 am (UTC)

Yay. Just YAY.

I was accepting the series ending with "Everything's Okay", but this made my whooole day. I think Daiki had more of an emotional impact of everything than Jay or Eiji, so I'm so glad he came to terms with Jay being Eiji in some way. =)) *nods approvingly* Although I realllly don't want it to end, cause you can never get enough of Panic Age, this is really the best way to end it. Sweet and happy. ^-^
ミランダ (大丈夫): EijiDaiki: Smilefaded_lace on January 10th, 2011 12:17 am (UTC)
I'm glad it was a good wrap up :) I wanted everyone to at least be in an okay place by the time the fic ended, and at least Daiki and Jay are on better terms.

And I'm glad there's other Panic Age fans out there! Don't worry about that, because I'll still be writing fic for fencer_x's and my Panic Age AU, which is, if nothing else, significantly more cheerful XD;
Jesse 〔マイト・ガイ〕: too sexy for tuti's shirtjesu_chan on January 10th, 2011 01:05 am (UTC)
Oh you mean the one AU with Staying Strong and Waiting Exhale, or one of those, cause both are awesome! :D And either way both of you make the best AUs for anything ever, I really enjoy reading what you guys have to offer. =)
ミランダ (大丈夫): Nagayan: :Dfaded_lace on January 10th, 2011 01:10 am (UTC)
Staying Strong isn't actually technically part of the AU-- it's just functioning under the assumption that in Panic Age canon, Nagayan was always a part of Tuti's life. Since, in Panic Age, we don't know much about any of the members' families, only that they have children, we went ahead and assumed that Tuti and Nagayan were living together with a family. XD; A bit of a stretch, yes, but not part of the much happier AU!

Waiting to Exhale is in the same AU as Everything and Parental Responsibility ^^; I'm glad you've enjoyed all the fics!

Edited at 2011-01-10 04:10 am (UTC)
Jesse 〔マイト・ガイ〕: gin shovel ♥ he has onejesu_chan on January 10th, 2011 01:42 am (UTC)
Ahh, I see, I see. I was thinking they weren't exactly related, but you can never be too sure. Thanks for clearing that up. ;)
S: Eiji/Daiki: best timesyomimashou on January 10th, 2011 12:42 am (UTC)
I'm so glad Daiki and Jay reconciled ♥ Daiki deserved that much, at least. And having them both be okay with Jay's relationship with Eiji is really the happiest ending you could ask for, despite it still being bittersweet ;~;

Also, I'm glad Lucky Jr. gets a happy ending XD Since I assume Daiki is taking much better care of him than he was before...

Edited at 2011-01-10 03:42 am (UTC)
ミランダ (大丈夫): EijiDaiki: Captivatedfaded_lace on January 10th, 2011 01:04 am (UTC)
Yeah, I think, though both of them behaved poorly and both were victims... they both had to shape up, and I wanted them to do it together. It's hard to remember that Daiki isn't just a victim, but was sort of a crappy dad for seventeen years of Jay's life... but I think they've both matured over the course of the fic. ^^;; And at least Daiki's not an alcoholic anymore?

Yeah XD; I think it's good Daiki has SOMEONE at home with him, even if it is just Lucky Jr. Having the responsibility of a dog probably helps keep him on track too.