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06 October 2013 @ 05:45 pm
Happy birthday, yomimashou!! I totally tricked you into thinking nothing was coming, didn't I? Ahahaha! I'm so sneaky. |D;;;; I really hope you enjoy this and I'm sorry it's so faily!

title: Clueless
rating: g
pairings: Haniuda Amu→Nakamura Reia, Jinguji Yuta/Nakamura Reia, background Takahashi Fu/Kishi Yuta
warnings: immature post-breakup behaviour
word count: 893
author's note: This is a birthday present for my bff yomimashou! ♥ I hope you have an awesome day!
summary: It sucks sometimes, Amu thinks drearily, to not understand, to be so completely clueless.

Sometimes Amu feels like he never has any idea what's going on. He's never been really good at knowing things, not since he was a kid, and certainly not once he joined Johnny's, once he entered the dazzling world of show business. It's hard enough to remember the names of all the managers and staff and senpai around him, not to mention the choreography and the lyrics and all the right costume changes… sometimes, in fact, he feels like he's being bombarded from all angles with new information that he can't quite manage to keep in his head. He's never been very good at multitasking, after all, and when everything all around his is as sparkling and breathtaking as… well, as everything is in Johnny's, it makes it just that much harder.

And that's not even getting onto the topic of the other juniors, the group of kids his age with whom he's (sort of?) a group and (sort of?) friends. Or at least, Amu thinks they're friends, but he's never really been good at knowing that sort of thing either, how to get close to someone besides literally standing close to them and hoping that the physical proximity will bring with it an interpersonal closeness, as well, but now, after two years, when it comes to Jinguji and Kishi and Genki and Kaoru and Fu and Reia, Amu really thinks they are friends, not just people who stand close to one another. Still, even though they're his friends, even though they hang out together and joke and laugh, Amu struggles to read them sometimes, struggles to know what's going on inside their heads and between them.

Because how is he supposed to be able to understand why Fu calls Kishi names like forgetful and clumsy while other times, they hold hands and leave rehearsal together and look into one another's eyes in a way that Amu doesn't really understand but makes him feel somehow awkward all the same? And how is he supposed to know what it means when one moment, Jinguji is boasting Reia as his boyfriend and lauding his cuteness and his talents while the next, he's calling Reia a bitch and saying nasty things about him to Amu behind his back? They're on-again-off-again, Genki has explained to him before, matter-of-factly, as if everyone should understand, but Amu doesn't, and so he nods along and tries not to look utterly baffled as he watches and wonders what it all means.

And it's not really such a big deal, because most of the time, Reia seems perfectly happy, and while Jinguji doesn't, really, one thing Amu has learned is that pouting is basically how Jinguji goes through life. And so he tries not to worry about it, but something about the things that Jinguji says about Reia when they're, as the others put it, "off again," something about the way Reia sighs heavily at the mention of Jinguji's name every so often makes Amu worry. Because while he doesn't really know what the feeling means, he knows that every time he watches Reia dance, every time he sits beside Reia in the van on the way to a concert venue or magazine studio, every time he gets a little too caught up looking at Reia even when Reia's doing nothing at all, it makes his chest feel tight and his heart feel fluttery, and what he does know (or at least, what he thinks he knows…) is that Reia deserves the best. And so sometimes, even if he knows he doesn't know everything, he can't help but worry that something's a little off.

Still, Reia assures him it's fine, Reia brushes him off and even gets a little annoyed sometimes, and so he nods and does his best not to worry, but sometimes, still, it's hard not to be concerned, hard not to be frustrated, because no matter what he does, he can't ever seem to get it right. Amu isn't really one to get down easily, to get depressed, but sometimes, for reasons he (of course) doesn't understand, when it comes to Reia, he can't help it, because clearly, he understands Reia the least of them all, clearly, he fails at comprehending the situation if every time he tries to help, Reia doesn't want to hear anything of it. Mostly, he tries not to think about it, but still, it gets him down when Reia blows him off to spend the evening with Jinguji, or when, even amongst a large group, Reia is always at Jinguji's side, and he can't help but feeling just the tiny bit down on himself when, on the morning of his birthday, he doesn't even get a text message from Reia. It sucks, he thinks drearily, to not understand, to be so completely clueless.

But then when he arrives at rehearsal to find all his friends waiting for him in the dressing room, a cake set out on the counter and gifts in hand, when they all break out into a rowdy and off-key but wonderful anyway rendition of happy birthday that ends with a kiss on the cheek from Reia himself, Amu can't help but think, even standing stunned in the doorway as he is, that maybe he doesn't understand what's going on, but maybe, sometimes, that's okay.
Current Mood: deviousdevious
Current Music: Aozu//Aruki Hajimeta Hi
☆miNt | ミント: Jrs ☆ reia hmbigbang_mint on October 6th, 2013 09:57 am (UTC)
at last i found other one who made Jinguji/Reia fanfcis beside me? ;o; (not) (whacked)

oh this is really great ;w;
amu's unrequited love towards reia ♥
i love how you're so detail on explain everything in amu's mind
ミランダ (大丈夫): Reia: cutefaded_lace on October 6th, 2013 10:18 am (UTC)
Ahaha I actually ship them really hard. I made a whole bunch of icons of the two of them! XD; I want to write more about them, but my bff loves Amu, so I wanted to write about him for her. XD

I'm really glad that you liked it, though! ♥ Thanks for reading!

Edited at 2013-10-06 10:20 am (UTC)
☆miNt | ミント: Jrs ☆ daigobigbang_mint on October 6th, 2013 12:47 pm (UTC)
wow it's great ;w; somehow kinda sad bcs all of my friend were more shipping jinguji with genki orz (idk why but i don't really like this pair)
i see~ make some for me then (puppy eyes)
ミランダ (大丈夫): Reia: cutefaded_lace on October 6th, 2013 02:29 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I don't really get that pairing haha. Genki doesn't really seem like he likes Jinchan enough for them to be dating. Also, Reia is perfection so... yeah |D;; As you can see, I'm only a little biased. |D;;;

Make some what? Fic? XD Do you have a prompt? I can't make any promises but I'd be happy to try to write you something. ^^
☆miNt | ミント: Jrs ☆ gureiabigbang_mint on October 6th, 2013 04:53 pm (UTC)
yes fics and oh sure i have prompt (happy)

so Jinguji is currently getting jealous because of everything. Reia is once mentioned about his combi name with Miyachika on Potato August as "miyarea" plus the facts that they're getting so close each other. Also, on JJL #100 there's moment where's Reia's helps Genki to stand up by giving his hand and Genki touches his hand (Jinguji's then shoves Genki at the moment). These are some moment which makes Jinguji feels jealous but he's too shy to mentioned about it. Jinguji is then tried to avoids Reia which is makes Reia's worried over him.

something like that hehehehehe thank you so much btw
ミランダ (大丈夫): Reia: cutefaded_lace on October 7th, 2013 12:55 am (UTC)
Haha, okay, I'll do my best! I can't promise that it will be exactly like this, or that I'll even be able to write it at all, but I'll try write something for you that you like!
Chibi-Nii is an Angelvflmaeuschen_ff on October 6th, 2013 07:57 pm (UTC)
Loved how you depictured Amu's mind it made me smile. It's cute how clueless he is XD
ミランダ (大丈夫): Kento and Shori: cuddlesfaded_lace on October 7th, 2013 12:56 am (UTC)
Thank! XD I'm glad you liked it~
S: Amu/Reia: >3>yomimashou on October 7th, 2013 04:01 am (UTC)
You totally tricked me XDD And omg I love this so much~~

Amu is so cute ;~; Poor derpy bb. He thinks they are... friends |D The image of Genki trying (reluctantly and totally unsuccessfully) to explain to Amu about Reia and Jinchan's relationship is so great XD

And the way he can't help but worry, even though he knows he doesn't understand, is so cute ;~~; And his crush on Reia, ahhhh, so adorable *~~~* Reia does deserve the best... and really, how could anyone's heart not get a little fluttery from sitting next to him? ♥

And the end, omg, they all love him despite his cluelessness, and they really are friends after all ;~~~; So cute ♥♥♥ And I'm assuming Reia planned it all, because he's amazing XD
ミランダ (大丈夫): Reia: cutefaded_lace on October 7th, 2013 04:50 am (UTC)
Haha! I win! 8Dv And I'm really glad you like it XD I was a little afraid you'd think it was weird.

Oh Amu |D;;; Will you ever figure out the world? And yeah, ahaha, poor Genki. He would just be so =____=;; about the whole thing.

Ahahah aww, it's true, Reia is perfect, so who can blame Amu for having a crush on him.

And yes, I like to think it was Reia |D; but they all love Amu despite that he's socially awkward |D

Also your icon is so relevant XD
ルナーたん luna_truths on October 8th, 2013 11:15 pm (UTC)
You are my favorite person on the planet right night.

alksdfjae Poor Amu so confused all the time though. Then again with juniors like them I'd be confused all the time too.
ミランダ (大丈夫): Reia: cutefaded_lace on October 9th, 2013 02:27 am (UTC)
Aww yay XD I'm glad!

And yeah, poor kid |D;;;
min ♡: shoridoraeming on November 6th, 2013 07:56 am (UTC)
this is the cutest fic ever sobs

I really loved how you described reia from amu's point of view, because as a fellow reia fan it's so easy to sympathise and empathise with the way he feels so helplessly enamoured by reia's perfect everything♡ ✦ ⩊ ✦

thank you for writing it!!
ミランダ (大丈夫): Reia: cutefaded_lace on November 6th, 2013 08:25 am (UTC)
I'm realyl glad you liked it~! Reia is perfect ♥ Thanks for reading!