ミランダ (大丈夫) (faded_lace) wrote,
ミランダ (大丈夫)
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Mechanism

Title: Mechanism

Disclaimer: I don’t own Saiyuki

Rating: G

Warnings: Shounen ai, depressigness

Word Count: 155

Author’s note: I can’t possibly write anything happy right now. I’m sorry. I was going to work on “Let it Go,” but that’s no longer possible. Maybe later. Anyway, I hope you enjoy it. I wanted to try an alternate quotations marker. Hope it’s not distracting.

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I smile. You turn your head slightly to look at me; a worried expression comes across your face. It upsets me to see you worried, but I can’t say anything besides, ‘Gojyo?’

‘What’s wrong?’ you ask me, taking a step closer and looking even more concerned.

My breath hitches as I tell you, ‘Nothing.’ I am forced to look away. I might do something regrettable.

‘You’re lying.’ You turn away as you say it, tugging at my heartstrings. It hurts; you’re torturing me, and yet you don’t know it. You think you’re helping.

‘Ah, Gojyo, it’s nothing,’ I say to your back. You look over your shoulder for a second at me.

‘Whatever,’ you say, giving me a look that I don’t comprehend.

And I just smile at you. After all there’s nothing else I can do. It’s my response to pain. It’s a mechanism that I’ve turned on. And I cannot turn it off.
Tags: bl, one-shot, saiyuki
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